Back in September, I described my life based off the movie Groundhog day " Enough is Enough" I really felt every day was the same. I waited and waited for things to get better or even a glimpse of hope. I felt hopeless and defeated. I looked at the picture yesterday I talked about in that post and it doesn't even look like me anymore. I'm to chicken to post it yet :) Maybe when I hit my goals I will, right now it is horribly embarrassing to me even if I don't look like that anymore.
Last month at my rhuemy appointment, my doctor said to me, "I haven't seen you look this happy and good in a really long time." I didn't see what he did. But..... yesterday, I did.
It's amazing to me I broke the cycle 2 months ago and just now realized it. Maybe it took 2 months for the good effects to start to show and to really feel it. It wasn't easy. I had to walk through the pain and discomfort. One week I had the eating down perfect but no exercise. The second week I had the exercise down but not the eating. At some point I started to do both. I'm on week 10 of walking with my neighbor. We are doing 2 miles in 45 minutes and it's cold here!! I'm extremely proud of her also, having her help me stay motivated is extremely important. I hope I help her in the same ways. Also going on 4 weeks of weight watchers, I really am following the plan this time around and the results are showing!
I have zero pain. Did I say that correctly?? Yes, ZERO pain! I want to scream it from the roof tops! I feel fantastic and happy and alive again. I learned a lot this past few months. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can pick yourself up again. Perseverance isn't a race. I pray the so called RA remission is on the horizon and this feeling lasts a long time :) Stay tuned!!!
